Life Itself?

まあ、それは学校の第4週だと、みましょうと言うだけ...私は人生で終わりました。私はそれに対処することはできません。最初のオフ、私はたわごとのように人々を治療している人々を立つことはできません。これは、これまで十分に行ってきました。私は誰かが実際にすごく優しく扱うた最後の時間を覚えていない。

私は女の子インチだと組織とこの取引はドラマに満ちている。人々は知っている必要があります。私はそれを知っていると私は少女を自分で思います。私はちょうどそれはそれらが理由だけで、彼らが誰であるかの異なる方法で処理されている必要はないと思う。人々は、私は、彼らが自分自身で行くことを恐れていると思うことを派閥にこだわっています。正直言ってみましょう、私はそれはすでに起こっているよりも多くのドラマを立つことはできません。

それがあるように私はそれを教えてあげるからといって人々が今の私を怖がっています。申し訳ありませんが、私のせいではない。 Y'allは知っている必要があります。本当に。私はちょうどそれらで行われようとしているんだ。我々はまだ、最後の学期以来、ドラマのたわごとを持っていると何も変わっていません。少しも〜ない。まあ、彼らは生活の中で、ハードな方法を学びますと、私は正しい道を歩いていることを知っているので、私は間違いなく彼の義務の主イエス·キリストが起因してもらおう。

私は今日のために言わなければならないことすべてがということでしょう。

そして、私は複数のブログのために戻って来ます。

Choua

Today....worth the work out.

오늘은 그걸 느낄 정말 행복 해요 마치 내가 느끼는 것을 오랜 시간에 처음으로. 오해하지 마세요, 난 늘 행복되었습니다. 하지만 사람들이 제가 얻고 얼마나 나를 말할 것이며, 더 나은 내 크기를 변경할 아니라고 봅니다. 나는 변화하고 있습니다. 그냥 날입니다. 그리고 나를 위해 전용. 아무도 내가 그 사람을 손상 일을하게하지 않을 것이다.

일단, 나는 아픈 특히 체중에 대해 어떻게 말해 사람들에게 너무도 지쳤어요. 나 자신에 대해 기분 좋게해야합니다. 나는 사람들이 자신의 차이를하는 사람들을 이해를 생각하지 않아요. 둘째, 내가 누군지 스스로 더 좋은 일이야. 정말 그것이 중요하다고 생각합니까.

Today....sick :(

Today, I feel so sick than ever.  Can't stand eating normal food for right now.  I've been coughing, sniffing nose, and my right ear is deaf as heck.  Boy when does that appear to happen to me?  I just couldn't imagine.  Taking NyQuil is not my thing especially when drinking about 2 Tbsp. of it.  I just wish that I was better.  I hope that I do.  Cause this coughing isn't cutting for me at all.  God, please I do pray that a miracle happen.  Amen.

Thoughts for Day: May 1

1.  Do you ever wonder the reasons of why that person is your best friend?
There are times that I do wonder why my best friend is "my best friend".  Ever since kindergarten, she has always been there for me and I have done that to her.  We tell each other everything.  Even though Dana is at Florida for the time being, I do feel like our friendship is drifting apart.  Sure, we sometimes fight.  That's okay.  We're supposed to.  We both can't agree on everything.  


My reasons that she's my best friend is because she's there for me, she's there to help and cheer me on when I'm not myself, and she's understands the pain and suffering that I go through.  Without her, I wouldn't be the same nor she.  But most importantly, we would never have met.


2.  Define life and achievements.
Life is full of deceitfulness and accomplishments for you.  You only.  It's sad that life has to take a whole new meaning of what we should do rather than what we can do.  Life is too short to be in a hot mess.  Let's be honest, we hate dramas but it happens all the time.  Deal with it.  Trust me.  Just deal with it.  It's not worth trying to get over it.  Make a difference.  Life is full of wonders.  We make mistakes.  No one is perfect.  We learn our mistakes and take it as an experience.  


Achievements, to me, are like goals.  Goals that you want to reach at a certain part in time.  It's almost like a bucket list.  Achievements is what makes you you.  You are determine to do things that you are willing to accomplish whether you did or didn't.  Even if you fail at some things, at least you try it before others have.


3.  Define hope.
Hope is motivation.  A motivation to keep you going from leaving behind.  Hope is the strength to find yourself a whole new meaning.  Hope is forgiveness to redeem yourself to become better as a person and a role model for others.


4.  Define honesty.
Honesty is the truth.  The truth to everything.  Let's be honest, we sometimes don't tell the truth.  We need to more often.  The world would become a better place if we lie less.  Honesty is like a bond.  A bond that is so strong that it's hard to break.  


5.  Define you.
Define me?  I hate myself.  I hate everything that BG made me do.  I used to be happy, full of energy, excitement, and fun.  Now, I'm a bitch, tough, and plain ass smart.  I don't know if that's a good thing.  I wish that I could changed myself a little bit.  I really don't know what's me or not.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

4      Love is always patient;13

love is always kind;

      love is never envious

or arrogant with pride.

      Nor is she conceited,

5            and she is never rude;

      she never thinks just of herself

or ever get annoyed.

      She never is resentful;

6            is never glad with sin,

      but always glad to side with truth,

whene'er the truth should win.

7      She bears up under everything,

believes the best in all,

      there is no limit to her hope,

and she will never fall.

I remember when I watched A Walk to Remember, when Mandy Moore recited that whole verse to Shane West.  I really thought that it was the most precious thing to say to any

one.  I really thought it was.  At that time, I was about 11.  I didn't know what it really did meant besides love is so many things that we can interpret differently.  

Now, I know what it meant.  That verse has probably been one of the strongest verse besides John 3:16 that I will cherish.  Love can go beyond our reach.  It's never stops.  It continues to grow as we began to grow ourselves.

I really do have to think that movie for such an inspiration.  I really want to thank Nicholas Sparks for creating such a strong message.  I don't know how he does it.  I've been a huge fan of him since reading The Wedding.  I really don't think that any author can beat him into this genre.

After many disputes of dramas and unnecessary confrontations, it was about time to heal and put the pieces together.  First off, come on ladies, dramas are for losers.  Second, why should you care what people think or say about you?  You know who you are.  That shouldn't be an issue.  It's an issue that you would listen to them and believing them.  I know that this Chapter is filled with youngsters, but they should know by now who they are.  If they don't, it takes time.  Let it come to you. 

I said it like it is.  You may not like it.  It's the truth.  Come on, we're grown, not kids anymore.  You girls don't see that.  That is such a disappointment.  Our sisterhood...sucks as hell.  We don't even like each other nor stand each other.  Honestly, this is the worst decision that I've ever made.  I would rather go to the same sorority but a different university who has treated their sisters like no other.  That's ashamed that a person who hates it would rather go somewhere else where they do feel belong.

I just wish that Phi Mu would change for the better, or else it's over for me.  It's their lost, not mine.




Choua