Thoughts for Day: May 1

1.  Do you ever wonder the reasons of why that person is your best friend?
There are times that I do wonder why my best friend is "my best friend".  Ever since kindergarten, she has always been there for me and I have done that to her.  We tell each other everything.  Even though Dana is at Florida for the time being, I do feel like our friendship is drifting apart.  Sure, we sometimes fight.  That's okay.  We're supposed to.  We both can't agree on everything.  


My reasons that she's my best friend is because she's there for me, she's there to help and cheer me on when I'm not myself, and she's understands the pain and suffering that I go through.  Without her, I wouldn't be the same nor she.  But most importantly, we would never have met.


2.  Define life and achievements.
Life is full of deceitfulness and accomplishments for you.  You only.  It's sad that life has to take a whole new meaning of what we should do rather than what we can do.  Life is too short to be in a hot mess.  Let's be honest, we hate dramas but it happens all the time.  Deal with it.  Trust me.  Just deal with it.  It's not worth trying to get over it.  Make a difference.  Life is full of wonders.  We make mistakes.  No one is perfect.  We learn our mistakes and take it as an experience.  


Achievements, to me, are like goals.  Goals that you want to reach at a certain part in time.  It's almost like a bucket list.  Achievements is what makes you you.  You are determine to do things that you are willing to accomplish whether you did or didn't.  Even if you fail at some things, at least you try it before others have.


3.  Define hope.
Hope is motivation.  A motivation to keep you going from leaving behind.  Hope is the strength to find yourself a whole new meaning.  Hope is forgiveness to redeem yourself to become better as a person and a role model for others.


4.  Define honesty.
Honesty is the truth.  The truth to everything.  Let's be honest, we sometimes don't tell the truth.  We need to more often.  The world would become a better place if we lie less.  Honesty is like a bond.  A bond that is so strong that it's hard to break.  


5.  Define you.
Define me?  I hate myself.  I hate everything that BG made me do.  I used to be happy, full of energy, excitement, and fun.  Now, I'm a bitch, tough, and plain ass smart.  I don't know if that's a good thing.  I wish that I could changed myself a little bit.  I really don't know what's me or not.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

4      Love is always patient;13

love is always kind;

      love is never envious

or arrogant with pride.

      Nor is she conceited,

5            and she is never rude;

      she never thinks just of herself

or ever get annoyed.

      She never is resentful;

6            is never glad with sin,

      but always glad to side with truth,

whene'er the truth should win.

7      She bears up under everything,

believes the best in all,

      there is no limit to her hope,

and she will never fall.

I remember when I watched A Walk to Remember, when Mandy Moore recited that whole verse to Shane West.  I really thought that it was the most precious thing to say to any

one.  I really thought it was.  At that time, I was about 11.  I didn't know what it really did meant besides love is so many things that we can interpret differently.  

Now, I know what it meant.  That verse has probably been one of the strongest verse besides John 3:16 that I will cherish.  Love can go beyond our reach.  It's never stops.  It continues to grow as we began to grow ourselves.

I really do have to think that movie for such an inspiration.  I really want to thank Nicholas Sparks for creating such a strong message.  I don't know how he does it.  I've been a huge fan of him since reading The Wedding.  I really don't think that any author can beat him into this genre.

After many disputes of dramas and unnecessary confrontations, it was about time to heal and put the pieces together.  First off, come on ladies, dramas are for losers.  Second, why should you care what people think or say about you?  You know who you are.  That shouldn't be an issue.  It's an issue that you would listen to them and believing them.  I know that this Chapter is filled with youngsters, but they should know by now who they are.  If they don't, it takes time.  Let it come to you. 

I said it like it is.  You may not like it.  It's the truth.  Come on, we're grown, not kids anymore.  You girls don't see that.  That is such a disappointment.  Our sisterhood...sucks as hell.  We don't even like each other nor stand each other.  Honestly, this is the worst decision that I've ever made.  I would rather go to the same sorority but a different university who has treated their sisters like no other.  That's ashamed that a person who hates it would rather go somewhere else where they do feel belong.

I just wish that Phi Mu would change for the better, or else it's over for me.  It's their lost, not mine.




Choua